Let me be me!

While I am always happy to have friends and family in my life, they are not always welcome in my presence. What makes you think because I have nothing to do today (or anyday) that it's an open invitation for you? No, I have not seen you in forever, I have not seen piece and quiet to myself either. I have not seen the relaxing walls of the spa either. Why assume that because I took time off of work its time for you to plan something for ME to do?

I am a firm believer that I say everything I say for a reason, not just to waist my breath. If I say I can't do something please do not assume its because I don't want to do it because if that was the case I would simply say I don't want to.

Laying in bed....under a rock

After an extremely challenging day today, I am laying in bed doing this from my cell.

I know most people have gotten to a point where they feel life has put to much on them. I know I have! You are always looking in that tunnel for the light to show you the way out. The only bad part is a lot of the time you don't see a way about and instead crawl under the first rock you see for comfort.

Being under thing rock prevents you from living your normal life as well as happiness. It causes you to push others away.........

SORRY to all those affected but right now I just wanna be under my rock. Can't help no one til I have successfully crawled from under my rock.

Friends

I have often wondered what others definitions of friendship are? What makes you decide to hold on to a friend or lose one?

I truly believe a TRUE friendship should be able to withstand anything, especially small trivial things. I believe a friendship is like a relationship, you need to be able to take to one another and hear both sides of the story.

Its been a year now and a friendship that meant a lot to me has been lost (in their eyes but not in mine), all due to something that actually didn't matter. Failure to listen to people instead of just going by what you see or THINK can cause hurt and pain. Funny how I hold things closer to me than others.

Sometimes you get caught up in everyone else thoughts and ideas for you that you lose yourself. I often time and to concerned about others to make myself happy. I found myself struggling with that this weekend. I have decided to focus on me and what makes ME happy for a while and just tune out alot of other stuff. I know this will effect lots of people and they will see a change in the things I do right now, but its whats best for me.

I have found that I like taking pictures of strange things .... like the picture above. Those roses meant a lot to me for several different reasons. They were part of what made me think, that I need to make myself happy!

Palm Pre

So I am have contemplating a new cell phone. I more than need one! Until a few days ago I was thinking about the Palm Pro, which I will discuss later, til I found the article on the palm Pre. I think I am in love with this phone with the exception of the fact it slides open to the top, I would rather it slide to the side! Hope its released soon.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
The new-ness is underway, and Palm just debuted its long(est) awaited all-new handset, the Palm Pre. The curvy touchscreen handset has a 3.1-inch 320 x 480 multitouch display, with a silver center button down below and touch sensitivity all down the face -- the lower part is for "gestures." A full QWERTY keyboard slides out from the phone in a portrait orientation, and you can flip the phone on its side for accelerometer-sensed widescreen browsing. The phone is running Palm's all-new webOS platform, with TI's new OMAP CPU under the hood -- which Palm claims provides laptop-style power, and which juices the phones smooth transitions, scrolling and "deck of cards" app-switching. Other internal specs include EV-DO Rev. A, 802.11b/g WiFi, GPS, Bluetooth with A2DP and 8GB of built-in flash storage. There's a 3 megapixel camera with LED flash, mass storage-friendly microUSB plug and a good ol' 3.5mm headphone jack, but most exciting is the wireless charger -- a first for a mainstream phone.

Modeling

So I have been modeling for several years now, actually since I was a child, and recently I have thought over cutting it out. 2008 was a slow year for me in modeling, one reason being I just did not have an interest anymore. Well really I didn't have as much interest as I had previously.

Just as I decided that I was going to give it all up, I get 2 modeling offer (good ones) back to back. Makes me wonder is it time for a come back? Depending on how this goes I might just have to reconsider my options!!!

Welcome

I am new to this entire blog thing, so I have not quite decided which direction I will go with this. I know there is so much for me to share and many that would like to know. Any suggestions let me know.

Look forward to sharing more soon.