Social Networks

I have been doing some thinking about all of the social networks out there: Myspace, Bebo, Facebook, Tagged, etc. What is really the purpose? I once had an account on many of the sites but there were still quite a few that I just have never had. Did I use them all? NO! I also used to have much more time to just sit on the internet and just look and play on the sites but overtime I have found myself actually wanting to have a life away from the internet. I mean I few sites are ok but I have found myself updating and checking them less and less.

Why have multiple sites with the same friends? Can we all not jut get on one mainstream site? Why do people use the sites to see how you have been? Can you not pick up the phone or send an E-mail?

I have found that in order to keep up with all the sites you must stay on the computer several hours doing that alone... just maintaining these site. NO... NO MORE. For quite a few months now I have shied away from the sites and even contemplated if I even still wanted them.

I look back at all the sites I had forgot about or just plan abandoned because I gre tired of them. There was hi5 I mean my account was there but I have not been on in over a year.... Why even have it. There is bebo ... I swear that place is just for kids, but then again it was my kids who convinced me to get it. I never check that either let the kids have their space! I get invites all the time to stuff... what the heck is tagged? I mean really what was twitter? I mean who has time to update 10 times a day what they are doing... NOT ME! I have goals and things that I want to obtain soon and twitter aint doing nothing but wasting 5 mins of my day.

I have eliminated all the extra from myspace but decided to keep it because I do have quite a few modeling contacts on there so I kept it for modeling purposes only! I have to admit Facebook has been like a free version of reunion.com or classmates.com. I have even met some people and grew closer friendships with some people from work. But I really don't want these same people ALL in my personal life but have decided to keep facebook for that purpose only. Close friends know how to reach me!

Really I just wonder why would you have all these sites? Who has time to have a normal life and keep up with them all? What is the purpose? Do they matter? Maybe they should create one site that combines all of out social as well as business networks together and you could have your own friends under each one on this ONE PAGE. Until then in the coming weeks and days I have time I am eliminating some of the unnecessary stuff and pages. I am sorry this is just for me I don't feel the need to have all of this and really have grown quite tired of it. Am I wrong for feeling that way?

Comming soon

Franca Sneak Preview 4, originally uploaded by Ms. Franca.

Sigh

The past couple of months have had their ups and downs. Sometimes I am scared to weigh them in fear the downs with out weigh the ups. Through the constant support of a handful of people I am learning to keep my head up because for once in my life I feel like someone has my back.
There have been times in my past when I was going through bad times and i felt I was there to float it out alone, which made it harder to make it through. This year I have has a few old friends and someone new in my like stand by my side. These aren't the people who just sit back and tell you everything will be ok, they actually reached out and proved that they had my back and they were there to help me get through.
Since August of last year I keep looking at all the things that have happened and wonder WHEN WILL IT END. I then have to stop and look at the blessings that have came my direction, some of those blessing s would not have happened had it not been for those hard times.
I am thankful for those who helped me in the unexpected moving process. I had a few friends I would have NEVER expected to help me .... offer more than enough support. Although I may not talk to some of these people on a regular bases something brought them my direction when I needed it.
I went through ups and downs with relationships but yes that situation turned out the best. I have never EVER felt the way I do in my currently relationship. All of the things I thought just don't actually happen in real relationships, have happened. I have found someone who supports me, accepts me and all my flaws, has my back through THICK AND THIN, loves me, does not hide me, I honestly feel he completes me. I say that because the way I feel now is unlike I have ever felt, even in a 5 year relationship that included marriage.
I have to sit back and think of the goals that I have set for myself along with the goals I have set with my future husband, I feel that he is the person who will be there to help me achieve these goals and motivate me to continue trying.
Its funny how when some people aren't happy in life or can't get their way they try to ruin everyone's happiness, but only the strong can survive. This is to anyone who reads this or has tried to do me wrong in anyway:
No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. Isaiah 54:17
From this day forward I will no longer let the small things get me upset I am moving forward knowing that I have a wonderful family, a few great friends, and a loving partner that support me and have my back. This bond that I have with these people has been tested and looking at where we stand now.
From this da

Anticipation

Have you ever anticipated something wither it be good or bad? I have been impatiently waiting all week for something that really can't be rushed! I hope something good will come from the thing I am waiting on!

Let me be me!

While I am always happy to have friends and family in my life, they are not always welcome in my presence. What makes you think because I have nothing to do today (or anyday) that it's an open invitation for you? No, I have not seen you in forever, I have not seen piece and quiet to myself either. I have not seen the relaxing walls of the spa either. Why assume that because I took time off of work its time for you to plan something for ME to do?

I am a firm believer that I say everything I say for a reason, not just to waist my breath. If I say I can't do something please do not assume its because I don't want to do it because if that was the case I would simply say I don't want to.

Laying in bed....under a rock

After an extremely challenging day today, I am laying in bed doing this from my cell.

I know most people have gotten to a point where they feel life has put to much on them. I know I have! You are always looking in that tunnel for the light to show you the way out. The only bad part is a lot of the time you don't see a way about and instead crawl under the first rock you see for comfort.

Being under thing rock prevents you from living your normal life as well as happiness. It causes you to push others away.........

SORRY to all those affected but right now I just wanna be under my rock. Can't help no one til I have successfully crawled from under my rock.

Friends

I have often wondered what others definitions of friendship are? What makes you decide to hold on to a friend or lose one?

I truly believe a TRUE friendship should be able to withstand anything, especially small trivial things. I believe a friendship is like a relationship, you need to be able to take to one another and hear both sides of the story.

Its been a year now and a friendship that meant a lot to me has been lost (in their eyes but not in mine), all due to something that actually didn't matter. Failure to listen to people instead of just going by what you see or THINK can cause hurt and pain. Funny how I hold things closer to me than others.

Sometimes you get caught up in everyone else thoughts and ideas for you that you lose yourself. I often time and to concerned about others to make myself happy. I found myself struggling with that this weekend. I have decided to focus on me and what makes ME happy for a while and just tune out alot of other stuff. I know this will effect lots of people and they will see a change in the things I do right now, but its whats best for me.

I have found that I like taking pictures of strange things .... like the picture above. Those roses meant a lot to me for several different reasons. They were part of what made me think, that I need to make myself happy!

Palm Pre

So I am have contemplating a new cell phone. I more than need one! Until a few days ago I was thinking about the Palm Pro, which I will discuss later, til I found the article on the palm Pre. I think I am in love with this phone with the exception of the fact it slides open to the top, I would rather it slide to the side! Hope its released soon.

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The new-ness is underway, and Palm just debuted its long(est) awaited all-new handset, the Palm Pre. The curvy touchscreen handset has a 3.1-inch 320 x 480 multitouch display, with a silver center button down below and touch sensitivity all down the face -- the lower part is for "gestures." A full QWERTY keyboard slides out from the phone in a portrait orientation, and you can flip the phone on its side for accelerometer-sensed widescreen browsing. The phone is running Palm's all-new webOS platform, with TI's new OMAP CPU under the hood -- which Palm claims provides laptop-style power, and which juices the phones smooth transitions, scrolling and "deck of cards" app-switching. Other internal specs include EV-DO Rev. A, 802.11b/g WiFi, GPS, Bluetooth with A2DP and 8GB of built-in flash storage. There's a 3 megapixel camera with LED flash, mass storage-friendly microUSB plug and a good ol' 3.5mm headphone jack, but most exciting is the wireless charger -- a first for a mainstream phone.

Modeling

So I have been modeling for several years now, actually since I was a child, and recently I have thought over cutting it out. 2008 was a slow year for me in modeling, one reason being I just did not have an interest anymore. Well really I didn't have as much interest as I had previously.

Just as I decided that I was going to give it all up, I get 2 modeling offer (good ones) back to back. Makes me wonder is it time for a come back? Depending on how this goes I might just have to reconsider my options!!!

Welcome

I am new to this entire blog thing, so I have not quite decided which direction I will go with this. I know there is so much for me to share and many that would like to know. Any suggestions let me know.

Look forward to sharing more soon.